4/7/08 Sorry
guys, it's just been a bad day...One of those..I'm not sure what I'm
doing with myself days. I think I need balance and yet I don't know how
to achieve it. I think when I was younger and how I thought about being
a nurse and how bad I wanted to help people. I also dreamed of getting
married and having babies. Wow, I had a lot of dreams, all of which I
had achieved, or at least think that I had achieved. I'm not sure if
that's what the depressing part is, or if it's the fact that my obvious
career choice is a very demanding and stressful industry, and I think
that it puts a HUGE burden on my home life. I wish I can be a fantastic
mom to my kids and a fantastic nurse to my patients. But the truth is,
is that I can only be fantastic in one area and slack in the other.
Some way or another I feel as if I'm slacking in the Mommy department,
and I'm hating it. So, my day has been based on being a little depresed
hoping I can come up with some answers. I haven't come up with
any..It's not easy being a career Mom, for you carry a lot of guilt.
All well, I shouldn't complain.I'm very blessed and maybe I should work
with that fact..till 2marrow. Back Home www.momscrazylife.com
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